Have you ever wondered what life would be like if you were something else?? Like if you were a bird you can fly and be free or if you were a tiger you can run in the wild and prowl in the night. Sometimes i feel constricted or even bound to follow my dreams. Theres always something or someone trying to pull me down. Its not that i am complaining about my life its good but there are just times when i wish things were different. Like i wish for different things in life like a better house or a better lifestyle. I guess we all once in a while wish for things we cant have. Sometimes things just dont go my way and obviously we all get angered.

      ok onward! So i encourage all of you people to go to your local cancer charities and donate or help any way you can also its winter time and extremely cold in some places also a new year meaning new clothes so get rid of clothes you dont wear and donate them to homeless shelters believe me to see a man with no family wearing no coat is sad. So Donate!

Grr 4 words. PSAT! God i guess its suppose to be a practice test and i failed horribly. I guess it would have helped if i had studied but i thought i could wing it and i got lazy so whatever! Im really nervous about the SAT cause seriously its like setting ur whole life in motion. Its the score that will help you get into college and i dont even know what i wanna do with my life yet. Again life is sooo complicated i can barley get through my life at home i wonder how i will survive life on my own. Uggh!

Song of the Day: Love Drunk by Boys like Girls

I love CONVERSE!

Really? Why cant life just be simple your born you grow you find ur true love you die. no its gotta be all complicated and crap. I swear us girls got it the worst. Men...ha they have it so easy they can eat whatever they want without worrying about their weight be incredibly stupid in public and girls think its so cute...heck they dont even have to shower if they didnt want to. Boys just smack on deoderant and axe colone and there on there way. ( which by the way is totally disgusting if you ask me) but girls like me worry so much about little things like how my hair loks today or if the answer was really 5 instead of 2.4. Hahaha just my life though. Still no date to homecoming. surprise surprise! Grr i mean i need to find me a date and pronto all my friends have dates and this guy who i think likes me doesnt have the guts to ask me! which is really depressing considering i do like him...alot.

Ok i hate mcdonalds! i swear they spit in ur burger and they make sure they put extra salt that way you die faster. Its like they are on a mission to kill you. So im laying off all fast food in general. And wtf! Ronald Mcdonald! Hate him with a passion. He an evil clown trying to get kids to eat his chicken fingers that come from chickens ovaries and such. How gross! To all you blogger i have a challenge see how long you can go without fastfood. I dare ya. Exccept in n out doesnt count cause its made fresh hahaha at least i think its it. Speakng of in n out have you ever noticed on their cups they have psalms at the bottom? I think the creator of this so called resturaunt was a religous man.

So im in yearbook this year and i tell ya...working a camera is fricken difficult! i really dont want to red the manual cause its not even worth my time! like okay if ur in alg 2 and you have a graphing calculator you know what im talking about. Those things are rediculous it took me about twenty minutes to figure out how to turn it on. And my teacher was like well i read the manual and i told him wow ur the first person ive ever to known to read any type of manual. In my casa my family just hooks it up and pray we know how to work it.

Cant tell you how tired i am practice was insane i had to sprint from like china to india no joke.
Peace
Song of the Day: 4ever by: the Veronicas
Awesome song makes me wanna get in the car and drive for some odd reason.

The Beginning

So uhh hi i guess, well there not much to say about me just that im a 16 year old trying to get through life. Im in colorguard and if you guys dont like it you can all go away cause its pretty dang hard. I've hit my face so many times its not even funny. My parents arent doing so well liike they have their fights and it gets pretty bad. I think thats part of the reason why i started this blog thing was because i need to vent. Everybody has issues and stuff but we all need to just talk aboutthem idk be heard i guess. Basically my life isnt perfect...hell whos is and its only a matter of time before my parents really go at it and something bad happens. My little sister doent really no whats going on and i dont have the courage to tell her cause i dont want to see her breakdown and cry. Sometimes i do that....just cry cause i cant do anything else. and you know that saying "crying isnt gonna do you good." ? well i oppose of that statement...it actually help relieve everything thats inside and helps me get all the stress out. But i cant help wonder if maybe things tht are suppose to happen for a reason arent always good reasons. Like if my parents were to split up my sister and i would spit up...my mom would go into a depression my sister would be lost without me and me...well id be the one holding up the tent. Lets just say things that happen arent always for the better. Cant really explain much more than that except i hope things turn out okay. Yup thats my sad story oh and i dont have a date to homecomeing! Yes Very sad i mean this guys matt who i really like always flirts with me texts me like everynight and i thought he was gonna ask but...NO! he didnt well i dont need a man to complete me ahaha look at my parents Gah! My ex, Kevin, was a total douche bag i hope thats how you spell it, anyways he was way to clingy and protective i couldnt do anything with out him being RIGHT THERE. It was rediculous and ughh just plain annoying. SO i broke up with him over text. yeah i know how horrible but i was too afraid to do it in person. Im not really one for confrontation so i try to avoid situation like that. Grrr makes me mad.
Song of the Day You Belong With Me by Taylor Swift :D